Letra de Millenium

Me and everything around me, is unstable like Chernobyl
Ready to go at any moment, jumpin' like a pogo stick
Life never lived up to my expectations, so why expect the patience?
Expect the worse but now I'm pacin' back and forth
Inside, I'm melting like water on wicked bitches
A monster truck done came and ran over my picket fences
I had the best of life in my clinches
But monkey wrenches was thrown like chairs kings sit on

My prayers seem to long I fall asleep before the endin'
Don't even get to say "Amen"
I hope he understand I be on bended knees
At times, I think I'm crazy, then I say forget it
Or maybe it's the Devil infiltrating and like Riddick bow
I've been fighting this since them fetus days
I count from one to twenty, when I'm through, repeat the phrase
It's just a phase, it's gon' all pass, but that gets old too
I'm weakening like a deacon doin' dirt
What am I supposed to do?