Letra de Substance Affliction

I just don't know, where do I go from here
Dead ends, dead friends, what's left for me?
Nothing can bring me back from this fucking disease
I'm fucked up, blind again
Its how I feel, its how I deal with internal conflicts in my head
One day I will destroy myself, been feeling like I'm somebody else
I'm trapped in the clutches of my past mistakes
What do I have to do to catch a fucking break
Distant, oh so distant I should have let you in
Constant, oh so constant this pain just pull the pin!
I've been wasting my life away
I am a victim to the poison in my veins
All my days are spent jaded and I am
Losing hope that I'll find a way out
Through the darkness I search for a light, to illuminate the path up ahead
I can feel my heartbeat rising, every second makes me feel that I am nothing
Pushing my face to the ground
I've been beaten and bruised, used and abused. The way I see i've got nothing left to lose
Thoughts creeping at the back of my mind
I've gone to far and now I'm running out of time
Break these fucking walls that are confining me, the room is spinning please god don't let this define me!
Will this ever end
Put a gun to my fucking head, and set me free oh let me start again